| Location | Northampton |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Ectopic Pregnancy |
| Date of Birth | 01/04/2009 |
| Date of Death | 01/04/2009 |
| Visitors | 476 since 10/08/2009 |
| Creator |
On March 31st 2009 I was taken into A&E suffering from bleeding and cramps, I was 6.5 weeks pregnant and a scan on the morning of 01 April 2009 showed my baby was developing in my left fallopian tube and couldn't be saved.
On March 22nd I found out I was having a baby and then it was taken away too soon.
Losing my baby was something that will live with me forever and so this page is dedicated to the memory of my first baby who I never had a chance to hold but will live in my heart forever. I miss you I wish our journey together had been much longer x
Time to Go to Sleep
God's stars shine out in Heaven,
The birds make not a peep,
The night is dark and quiet,
It's time to go to sleep.
Good night, my little darling,
Sweet dreams I send to you,
And while you sleep, God's angels
Will keep watch over you.
Author Unknown (Circa 1800s)
New Words By: Terry Kluytmans
Copyright © 2002 KIDiddles.com
This should have been our special day my angel
i'm so sad we didnt get to finish our journey.
Always in my heart my beautiful baby
Love you always
Mummy
xxxx
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom
Please See Me Through My Tears
You asked, "How are you doing?"
As I told you, tears came to my eyes...and you
looked away and quickly began to talk again.
All the attention you had given me had drained away.
"How am I doing?" I do better when people listen, though I may shed a tear or two.
This pain is indescribable.
If you've never known it, you
cannot fully understand.
Yet I need you.
When you look away,
I am again alone with it.
Your attention means more than you can ever know.
Really, tears are not a bad sign, you know!
They're nature's way of helping me to heal.
They relieve some of the stress of sadness
....but you are wrong.
The memory of my loved one's death will always be with me,
Only a thought away.
My tears make my pain more visible to you, but you did not
give me the pain...it was already there.
When I cry, could it be that you feel helpless,
Not knowing what to do?
You are not helpless,
And you don't need to do a thing but be there.
When I feel your permission to allow my tears to flow,
you've helped me
You need not speak. Your silence as I cry is all I need.
Be patient...do not fear.
Listening with your heart to "how I am doing" relieves the pain
for when the tears can freely come and go, I feel lighter.
Talking to you releases what I've wanted to say aloud,
clearing space
for a touch of joy in my life.
I'll cry for a minute or two... and then I'll wipe my eyes
and sometimes you'll even find I'm laughing later.
When I hold back the tears, my throat grows tight,
my chest aches, my stomach knots...
because I'm trying to protect YOU from my tears.
Then we both hurt ME, because my pain is held inside,
a shield against our closeness and YOU,
because suddenly we are distant.
So please, take my hand and see me through my tears...
then we can be close again.
Not a day goes past I dont think you my angel. Your rose garden is growing well and thats our little place now.
Its less than a month now until what should have been our special day and its hard knowing our day will never come but im going to do something special for you and hopefully that will help me as well.
Always in my heart.
All my love
Mummy
Angels surround us no matter where you go
Angels are around us don't you know
Angels will be strong for you
Angels will belong to you
Angels will survive for you and protect you
no matter what you do
Angels will be there in time of need
and angels will never leave as long as you believe
Understanding
Why don't you understand
I don't want flowers
I want to talk
I want to know I’m not alone
I still miss my baby
to me my baby never just went away
I’m sick of hearing words
Its another day
My baby died
its not a hard word to say
so why can't those who care
just tell me
Instead of hiding or being shy
I need people to support me
Not me having to do it all
Be strong for myself
as well as others
when getting on each day
can be a struggle
I’m not after much
just a kiss or a cuddle
A sign to know that you care
A sign to say I have not forgotten
your child.
Instead of that look or that stare
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